I’m sorry…. Was all you said
Three words… cut short to two coz you needed to save your breath
Exhausted from the pumping and thumping
Making a way where there was none
Turned explorer, Cadamosto
Between my legs you yearned for moisture
Of whites and reds and clear liquids
Tearing paths and leaving scars
Sword cutting through, defying laws of compatibility
Your eyes reflecting power, dominance… your carnal ability
My eyes shut, my mouth gagged, screams unheard
With every thrust, every breath, you whispered…. I’m sorry.
I’m sorry… you still said
Darkness looms, pressure mounts, your voice fills my head
Within, around, deep inside, your thrusts are met with questions
For luring me into your room, forcing me into silence
For telling me you’d be my new playmate, give me a new toy
For taking the plastic from my hands, filling them with your leather
For cursing the sweetness out of lollipops coz you’d give me better
For bolting the locks, drawing the blinds and stripping me naked
For letting your hands roam, press, promising you aren’t wicked
For tearing me apart… skin, mind and soul
I’ll tell you what that is
I’m sorry you were sorry, for you knew not what to be sorry about
I’m sorry we weren’t discovered, I wasn’t rescued, my cries not heard
I’m sorry I grew up blaming myself for what I knew not
I’m sorry I have to live with the trauma, hot flashes, memories that refuse to rot
I’m sorry for my doubt… my curiosity… my self-consciousness
I’m sorry for my future of unstained sheets, unbelievable explanations, unusual hostility
I’m sorry for stories of unbeaten drums passed on to my daughters
I’m sorry for my daughters, that they may suffer a similar fate
I’m sorry because the world refuses to see,hear and act
This is what sorry means.
So when you trudge through the sacred valleys of yet another innocent one
Your breath coming out in low whispers of ‘I’m sorry’
Remember this… Remember me… Remember that…
When your deed is done, your thirst quenched
Sorry is the cloak you’ll leave us wearing.
Sorry, are we?
Sorry, I am
I am sorry!